update and almost progress

Thank you for the comments and for the phone calls I've gotten.  I know it sounds really cheesy, but that post was actually a little liberating. I feel more free.  So, thank you for letting me add my inner turmoil over a little parenting deal to the blogosphere. 

So, we've almost had some progress today.  Almost.  Yesterday, as I finished posting, the baby gate in the doorway to Thanny's room got knocked down.  Then Thanny found me down here.  No nap.  Last night I pondered what other approaches I could take.  Mostly, being calm.  So, we did a just mommy and Thanny quiet activity of reading before bed. Jenna was no where to be seen so he wasn't jealous. I sang and rocked him for a few minutes.  Then I said last time.  And I meant it.  I left even though he was begging.  He cried for a few minutes.  Then just called my name.  Then it was just bumping around in there and chattering.  WAY better than yelling and screaming and sobbing.  Just when I thought he was getting close to sleep (about 50 minutes later) I hear a blood curtling scream.  Something had actually happened.  I went running upstairs to find him standing at the baby gate covered in blood.  Dripping from his mouth down his chin, all over his shirt, the baby gate and all over his hands.  Oh, and a poopy diaper. Not a good thing to see!!  So I got him cleaned up.  All I could figure is he said he "bonked" (duh) on the lights and sounds.  And in we went again.  He wasn't happy with it- I think he thought it was his get out of jail free card.  I sang and give him attention for a few minutes again. Then I left.  We' starting all over on the banging, bonking, chattering... anything but sleeping. But once again, he's not screaming and wailing hysterically! Just a little whining now and again.  Now he's silently reading some books he found in there.  Atleast he's quiet and calm. We may be making progress. 

I feel like I'm making some progress too.  I don't feel upset or angry. Still a little weary.  But, beginning to feel more patient with myself and with him.  I'm really, really appreciative of the support.  I also feel like I'm trying to be more in tune with the Spirit to know what to do and when. With those two things, I'm more hopeful and feeling buoyed up.  Thank you!